Love is life, and life is hell…
A follow-up on my last post…
I’m going back to school tomorrow, going to try and finish the semester. At this point, with all the work I’ve missed the past week, and given my current mental state, it’ll be an act of God if I pass anything…
I have a meeting with my adviser Monday about dropping out of college, or, to be more specific, taking a break from it for a semester or two…I want to stay home for a while, I don’t want to be too far from her, even if I can’t be WITH her…I’m going to try to be good friends with her, to be BEST friends with her. Nothing funny, no trying to work my way back, I’m just gonna hope and pray that one day, someday, I might get my second chance. I just want to do whatever will keep me closest to her, whatever to increase my chances, however small they be. That’s more important to me than life itself, more important than anything…
So, that’s a start…I’ll let everyone know what I decide in regards to taking time off college. I’ve found in the last couple days a lot of people for seem reason want to see me succeed, in some cases people I don’t even really know. I’m sorry if I’m letting some people down, delaying if not killing my big dreams. I hope you can all just try to understand me when I say this woman is the most important thing in my life…and I can’t just walk away forever…I have to try and get my second chance, even if that’s years down the road, or even if it’s never…
And smoking is bad for you kids. It makes your mouth taste like crap and you smell…I’ll probably quit…soon…I’M NOT ADDICTED! (yet…)
Hm, I had similar obsessive tendencies with women before… And looking back I feel it’s not something to loose your future over in most cases, but that’s just me talking; I live on porn
The smoking is the least of my concern, but really, maybe you were here to share games with others instead of making them, who knows.
I can only say so much, it’s really all up to you.
Macro_Pheliac said this on November 26th, 2006 at 10:13 am
I don’t understand what you mean by “share games with others instead of making them”…
Nmaster said this on November 26th, 2006 at 10:23 am
Share the experience, multiplayer and stuff you know? Many times making games takes the whole fun out of the experience because of all the work, of ourse this is hypocritical since development is mandatory, but it’s just my opinion.
Macro_Pheliac said this on November 26th, 2006 at 11:53 am
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blog.nwizard.com » Blog Archive » Crossroads… said this on November 27th, 2006 at 5:02 pm
Smoking isnt that bad….
=D
Lynnette said this on November 28th, 2006 at 10:10 pm