You’re welcome! I really appreciate all that you do on your blog. I believe that we have people brought into our lives, temporary or no, stranger or not, and that they serve some purpose. They teach us something about ourselves, change us, and if things go properly, when they leave, they’ve left us in a better state than they found us. We can only hope that we have the same effect on everyone that we meet.

Take your time, read some good books. I very highly recommend two of the three books by Mitch Albom (haven’t yet read the third in the “series”): “Tuesdays with Morrie,” “The Five People You Meet in Heaven,” and the third (new this fall) is “For One More Day.” I think those books helped me more than most that I’ve read, and they can be read in an afternoon (but they must be savored, as you’ll be able to tell).

Take your time, and we’ll see you soon. (The New York Times or some big paper like that mentioned game design as a growing field, so hang in there, I saw it on CNet, or Digg, I think.)

I can make the homepage the blog and just put big links to the other places…

Actually, I think that is partially due to the new site design that you put on a few months back. In what I like to call the “good ol’ days”; you had everything centralized on one page, and now since your blog, gaming reviews and community are separate, certain parts of your site will be ignored.

I, personally liked the old format.

Deep down, my brain says your right. But this isn’t the first time this has happened. God helped me change paths once before, saved me from a life I’m very glad I didn’t end up leading. This was supposed to be my right path, she had become everything I lived for in the past few years. If you knew me before I met her, you wouldn’t believe I’m the same person now. Everything I’ve become is thanks to her…I just…don’t feel I can ever be happy again without her…

Marco, thank you too. Deep down I hold hope I can heed your words when all the smoke clears. I’m not going to blame God, I’ve done that far to much in my life. All I can do is pray for his help through this.

I’m sure everyone will call me an idiot for it, but I picked up that pack of smokes today, and I’m not going to say I hate it. Considering I lost my grandfather to it, and my dad just recovered from cancer because of it, it’s probably the stupidest thing I’ve ever done. But right now, I could really care less about that far in the future, I’m scared of what’s going to happen to me today…

All I do is sit here, waiting for the phone to ring. Hoping for some precious good news. I can’t even bring myself to play games. I can’t enjoy anything like I am now. It’s been a long time since I felt this bad…many, many years. I’m just so completely lost right now…

I won’t leave you guys hanging, I promise. I’ll post again, I won’t let the blog die. Just, if you can, give me some time…